I went out to play with my camera this morning and took some shots of myself (of course). I realized when I was playing around that I was feeling really frustrated. I am not very technical and I'm trying to learn the all the exposure, shutter speed, ISO, etc and what I found was that I was beating myself up for not being good at this already. And that I just want to be good at it NOW. Then I saw the pics of me and felt like I look FAT, and really bad outfit.. etc. Do you know those negative self-talk conversations? The voice in you head going a mile a minute (no- I am not crazy either). In case you asked yourself " What voice in your head". THAT'S the exact voice I'm talking about!! That little negative voice that wants to kick you down whenever it can. I call mine my evil twin. I have a male friend who calls his "Little Hitler". We have our Annual Team dinner tonight with everyone on our Triathlon Team (like our club) and I don't want to go. I don't know what to wear. Feel fat. No good at photography (as if THAT has any relevancy hah hah).. on and on. So what will I do? Thank the evil twin for sharing. Have a long soak in the tub and pull out some amazing outfit and go anyway. End of Story. Oh, yeah, and have fun!
So there you go, a little bit of Jodi Unplugged for a Saturday afternoon!! Love ya, xoxo j